It's been some time since I have last found the urge to share. Well, let's update. In the past 3 months, I've moved, become unemployed, and upon graduating went back to school for more certification courses while I'm trying to get into another CDP program for nursing. Don't even bother worrying about if I've found a job or not: all you need to know is that it's a tough market and I'm putting out 3 or 4 apps a day on average.
Things aren't perfect yet. They are far from it. With moving came new challenges that I don't think people think about until they have the time on their hands to do so. I love my new home. Particularly, because it is very near to the beach and the sun in always an extra bar of happiness. I love the community and exciting wildlife (Kougars, Armadillos, and Scorpion EEK). I even love the random monsoons :). What I don't love is the loss of a social network. In our home-towns we know everyone and where everything is. There is always somewhere to go and mingle. Even when a freshly graduated adolescent goes to college. There are hundreds of other fresh grads who all have the same thing in common---no one know anyone else. The difference as an adult is when you are put into a new environment with no job, limited resources, AND your a fresh college grad those other individuals that shared a common ground with you disappear. I realize this isn't always the case, per say, but very often we venture out without the comfort of our support systems.
Now, granted I had a limited social circle in NY. If you've followed you know why. But, I still miss the closeness with my parents and with my best friends. On the flip-side, I have been blessed in rekindling a relationship that bulldozes past skepticisms. Richard is a gem and without him I probably would have been a really angry and bitter person. He taught me to stop and breathe. I never seem to forget to smile around him because it's, well, I guess I love him. :) Our story is something that I took casually for too long. I spent years obsessing over a fairytale I imagined in my head, all because I figured the one in front of me was too easy. Why don't I ever do things the easy way? He offered himself to me even before he verbalized it. I on the other hand figured that if he was that awesome when we were 12 I was bound to run into Mr. perfect soon. Well, I forgot that children in their innocence are the best you'll ever have. Or, I should say that I didn't learn that until I hit rock bottom. I am blessed to say I feel in love with my best friend---literally.
It's hard having a degree and feeling like in this economy it's worthless. Think about it you spend nights, days, months, and years striving to become something because until this point everyone made sure you understood that without that piece of paper you're nothing. Fast forward, now holding this Degree, somehow you're still nothing. Cost of living goes up. Gas goes up. Cost of an education goes up. Student loans are getting bigger. Salaries stand still and lay-offs begin. Apps go out, but no jobs come in. It's truly a viscous cycle. I'm more worried about my generation' children. What kind of world will they live in? Is it worth having kids if I can't hope to give them more than my parents gave me? Isn't that the dream to be able to give your children more than you had? Well, why then, AMERICA, are we regressing? Why aren't jobs being made? Last question. What happened to paper applications!!!??? Every facility I walk into (yes I physically go) directs potential hires to the HR website. Do these companies really believe that they will find a quality individual electronically? In my eyes the first impression isn't the interview---not even the application/resume, it's in those first few introducing steps while asking for an application and whether or not that company is hiring. Because companies talk. Especially when a newbie comes in, managers do ask employees for impressions. I miss those days. But, this too shall pass, and I soon shall work.
Until then I'll continue working on me. I've brought back painting and I'm finding that my cooking skills are pretty awesome :) Babcia would be proud. Time for shut eye, I have a long day of making myself busy and taking on amazing responsibilities to keep my pleasing needs met.
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